Wednesday, December 12, 2012

12/12/12 - BFP!!

I am so excited to say that today we got our BFP (or positive result on a pregnancy test, for those of you who aren't up to date on pregnancy acronyms)!!!

It's only a light second line, but that's clearly a positive people!!

We are so happy, like really over the moon happy. I had a feeling that this might be the month for about the last 5 days. I've had really sore breasts, which was my only symptom with the last pregnancy. I have also felt off and on queasy, not exactly nauseous...but my stomach isn't quite right. I know it's crazy and I will probably regret saying this later on, but I am really hoping for some morning sickness. I just want to KNOW that I am pregnant and symptoms would be great for my peace of mind.

Of course I am absolutely terrified about how this will  turn out, but I am feeling surprisingly hopeful at the same time. Yeah, we had a miscarriage...and yes, I know that another one is possible, but our odds of having a second miscarriage aren't any higher than they were of having the first one. This is a fresh start and I am going to try my hardest to think positive thoughts. My first appointment is with a nurse practitioner on the 21st, so it's going to be a long week and a half wait until then. I'm going to push for having a couple quantitative HCG blood tests done for peace of mind (tests that determine the exact amount of pregnancy hormone in your system). I know that if I'm going to lose the pregnancy, I'm going to lose it...there isn't really anything that can be done about it. I am just going to take this one day at a time. I miscarried so early on last time that this next week and a half will be absolutely terrifying, but this is a different pregnancy and I am hoping for a different outcome.

Since I now have something to write about, I really do intend on updating this blog more often. I know that it isn't anything special and currently no one reads it, but I would love to document this momentous time in our lives. I am also hoping to meet some mommy friends and keep my family updated about how things are going  once I break the news to them. I am already thinking about how to tell them, I will write a post about my ideas on here soon.

Here's to hoping that 12/12/12 was a lucky day for everyone else out there, I know it was for us!!! How did you survive the stress of the first trimester? Any tips for getting your worries under control!

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  1. Hi Heather! Malia, from http://adoptionhomestead.blogspot.com/ here. This is also our first pregnancy after a miscarriage and I'm nervous, too. Praying has calmed me down a lot. I'll pray for you, too!

    Our (only) previous pregnancy was twins (from IVF) and both had weak heartbeats at 6 and 7 weeks, we lost one by the 8 week US and the other by the 10 week US. I read somewhere today that the odds of having a second miscarriage are actually lower than if you've never had one.

    Godspeed!

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    1. Thank you for the prayers Malia! I will keep you in mine as well! No one ever tells you how hard a miscarriage will be, but this time will be different for both of us...I just feel it! I love your name by the way, one of the names that we have always had in mind for a girl is Amalia (not the same, but close!). Best wishes and thanks for stopping by! I can't wait to read more about your journey as well.

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